What's Crackalackin ?

Not so much really.

Last night I was in my bed ASLEEP for six, yes six, solid hours. Maybe we are turning a corner. I'm not feeling any better though, I am still preoccupied with my age, my incredibly sore neck, my lost youth and my less than perky body parts. It's all very self indulgent and I should really pull myself together and think myself lucky etc etc

Believe me, I know just how lucky I am. My kids are amazing, beautiful - yadda yadda yadda.

I was discussing with a friend today how I am feeling ready to pull back a little part of the old me. It's fabulous being a Mummy but it's also pretty darn cool being Kazza, so sometime soon I will re-emerge from my cocoon of mummydom and hit the world full on again.

I'm not sure I will ever be the same girl who danced on tables 'til dawn, was always the last to leave, who was always one step ahead of the trends, who sipped champagne on the house beacause 'management' wanted girls like us there BUT I can be a bit more 'me' and so soon the transformation will begin. First step in the transformation will be to sort this old body out. I would like to say that I will be Kate Moss thin by Christmas but this is unlikely, it's a starting place though and slowly but surely next year my other resolutions MIGHT fall into place.

In other news, I have bought a memory foam pillow to help my aching neck - it's like sleeping on a breeze block but hey it might work.

Tomorrow is a day packed with ballet, visiting and shopping at Hobbycraft, yep it's all rock and roll around here - it might take a while for the old me to make a reappearance!!!

This looks cool by the way, in a geeky list making kind of way - ask my husband I am THE queen of to do lists.